Well, I'm approximately 33,000 feet over Mexico right now, and I was bored, so I'm going to update. It kind of sucks that I won't be able to put this entry up for a week, and by the time I put this one up, there will be six entries on top of it, therefore, this entry may never even get read. I woke up at 4:15 this morning. Off of a nice relaxing weekend, that wouldn't be that bad, but the weekend I've had was quite strenuous. For those who know me well, you know that I rarely ever get stressed. There's too much to do in one lifetime to fret about things that are out of my control. However, there were points this weekend that I pushed the envelope and did actually experience some stress. This was quickly overshaddowed by my environment. Realizing that I was not in complete control, and that certain things were out of my hands. Macbeth is coming along very smoothly, and I look forward to the trip downstate (For Kyle and Annie, UPSTATE). Well, I've got to fill out immigration stuff right now, it's weird to travel alone. I've only done it by plane once in my life, and that one didn't have a layover. I was on my own when I reached Texas, and I was really scared that W was going to pop up and electricute me. Just kidding, I knew he wouldn't be there, but hey, it's Texas!

And I am whatever you say I am, If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?-Eminem

Wow, what a long day. I sat through Macbeth twice, I couldn't take it, but I survived. We struck some of the set, and then I took Annie and Kyle down to Midway Airport. It was a fun drive, very little traffic. I leave tomorrow at 5 AM for a 620 flight. I'm excited, and I know I'm going to be exhausted when I wake up. I was planning to do some homework on the plane, but I am going to be dead tired. No more knowledge on how I'm getting down to the University of Illinois. I have decided, in the interest of surprise to keep the December Pictures off of my website until the conclusion of theatre festival. No More hints about this year's all state visitors! And to all of the crew and cast, I am sure you understand!!! Well, I guess this is the last entry of the year for me. I'll try to update on Saturday!!!

"This is the end, my only friend, the end"-The Doors

Busy Busy Busy. That's what I've been. I've literally had no time to update my webpage, and even this entry will be short. My family left for Puerto Vallarta today. I'm going on Monday, All state keeps me until tomorrow. I don't know what else could go wrong with our set. The thing is 4 feet too wide we believe, and there are just so many things that need fixing and changing, and more. I've kind of been on top, and it's difficult, I won't lie. I guess when we get down to U of I, we'll have time to do stuff. Today they told us that we can't drive down to Illinois, we have to get a ride. I leave Monday for Mexico, and then within a day that I get back, I have to arrange to get down there. I'll figure out something, perhaps I'll drive my car and park it in a ditch, or maybe not. I'll make it happen.

MMM, Christmas. Today was fun, many gifts for me. I'm looking forward to all state, just two days away, and on Monday, I leave for Puerto Vallarta. I got my TV tuner a few days ago, now I can watch TV on my computer. I got the Back to the Future box set, it has some funny deleted scenes. Well, off to play with my new stuff!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY (NOT FOR THE KIDS)

Well, today I woke up a little bit early, ten, and went christmas shopping. Then my brother and I went to Cafe Sarkis. If you haven't been there, it's an Evanston hot spot, and some high quality greasy food. I sold an amp yesterday, I forgot to post it. Another $16.00 for me!!! I can't complain about that. I won nine more auctions tonight, and I already have my sights set on 14 more coins that should almost finish my entire nickel collection!!! I'm very happy because of all of the coin books that I have, I have never filled one of them, and I will come close in the near future. I love break, it's great to have way too much time on your hands!

Just what I´m going through they can´t understand, Some try to tell me thoughts they cannot defend, Just what you want to be you´ll be in the end-Moody Blues

I woke up this morning at around eleven O'clock. I had a revelation that I might be able to buy coins cheap on ebay. Most of my day was spent browsing the internet. I got a little bit carried away, winning 10 auctions tonight, and I will probably win about 9 more tomorrow. My grandpa has had me collecting coins since I was born, and I realized that I would like to pick up momentum on it. It's an expensive hobby if you're not looking in the right places, but I think I am. I watched Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade today, It was my first time seeing the movie straight through. Indy is awesome. I love the bullwhip.

"If you can judge a wise man, By the color of his skin, Then mister, you're a better man than I" -Aerosmith, Ode to Trent Lott, Just kidding, the song's called livin' on the edge!!!

mmm, break. I went to all of my teachers, and I got a lot of stuff to do over break. Yay!!! One week without school is really going to put me behind. The crew break party today was fun, we watched monsters inc. I like that movie. Deerprints came out today. Kind of pissed me off a little bit. You see there was a quote in it, that was said by me, however it was a false quote. It was in the "False articles" section, however, when one puts quotations around something and attributes it to you, it is believed that you said it, regardless of what you call the section. The quote went something like, "Personally, I like to Hoard my money" and that I have no place to spend it though. It really paints a flattering picture of me doesn't it. Thanks Michael Goldberg.

you think you're special , you do, i can see it in your eyes, i can see it when you laugh at me, look down on me and walk around on me-Limp Bizkit

Today was grand. I took a physics test 6th period, and with the curve, I think I'll do just fine. In English, the alumni talked to us about college. I enjoyed it, and it once again got the wheels spinning about what I am looking for. In P.E. we had a dreadful game of Pillow Polo. I want to play the game and get sweaty, why don't other people? whatever. Math quiz tomorrow, I'm all studied up. Finally, 7th period, I rode the bicycle to make up a gym class. The thing said that I had went 8.5 miles, but I was still in the same place I started at the end, hehe. We moved furniture in crew, now we have more storage space!!! I finished the Godfather part 3 tonight. It is a good close to a great set of movies. You need to see all three movies to understand the end, but it is fitting. The moral, I believe, without giving away too much, is that, no matter how much you do in life, how much money you make, how many people you influence, you still wind up in the dust, like everyone else, and we are all somewhat trapped by the circumstances made around us.

"Dust in the wind, all we are is dust in the wind"-Kansas

Tired, tired, tired. physics test tomorrow, I spent virtually the whole afternoon studying. We continued watching Ghost World today, it's pretty funny. When I couldn't take the physics any longer, I started watching the Godfather, Part 3. I'm not sure that I fully like it. It's got a different atmosphere than the other two. I love Al Pacino though. Well, back to physics, grrrr.

To conquer death, you only have to die....You only have to die.-Jesus Christ Superstar, Andrew Lloyd Webber

12/17/02

So, I lifted some weights yesterday, and I am feeling the effects. I was so sore. I dressed up today for a foreign policy field trip, which I thought was going to suck but turned out to be really cool. I was the First Assistant Director of the Central Intelligence Agency. We all had to deal with the blood sucking press, and a bunch of Republicans in congress, hehe. I had fun. After school, I went to crew, hung some lights, and tried to wrap up an extension cord, but failed because of the pec deck (Weight machine). Like I said, so sore, my arm wouldn't reach across my body. I watched the end of the Royal Tenenbaums, which I started a few weeks ago. It was about time I finished it. Now i'm going to relax my sore bones.

Blue morning, blue day, won't you see things my way? Blue morning, can't you see what your love has done to me?-Foreigner

Today was fun. We are watching Ghost World in film as literature. I've never seen it before, but the first 40 minutes are funny. I ran Mr. DHS, which, the show itself I am not usually fond of, and sound is hectic, but Bittner rules, and Michael Johnson is a great crew prospect, so Mr. DHS wasn't that bad. ASK BEN LANTOW ABOUT TWEAKERS!!! Maybe, if someone can get to him, I could be happy. I need to know how much tweakers are selling for, and what a tweaker can do for me. Please ask him, you won't be sorry. THIS MYSTERY NEEDS TO BE PUT TO REST!!! Anyways, we have a foreign policy field trip tomorrow, which calls me out of all except English. So, virtually no homework for me tonight. Does anyone want to buy an amp? These things are not selling like I thought they would. Whatever.

DON'T FEAR THE REAPER-Blue Oyster Cult, Damn it Charlie, more cowbell!!!!!

Today was slow. I stayed up late last night and watched the Relic Hunter, if you're an insomniac, I highly recommend it. It's only on at 1 AM on Saturday nights. It's really fun though, it's got Tia Carerre in it. Then I slept until noon and dove right in to homework. I'm still not done, but I'll finish it tomorrow. I watched Monty Python and the Holy Grail, hilarious movie if you haven't seen it. Anyways, today was uneventful. But I did list a new amp online. It's one of the big ones, and I think I'll do well with it.

The monkeys stand for honesty, Giraffes are insincere, And the elephants are kindly but They're dumb.Orangutans are skeptical Of changes in their cages,And the zookeeper is very fond of rum. -Simon and Garfunkel

Stunts was amazing, you guys were great. Paul, I love the fog, and it was tempered very well with the lights. Congrats on a great show, and I look forward to seeing it again tomorrow. I finished Annie Hall in film as Literature today, and I finished Dr. Strangelove in Foreign Policy. Both are very funny movies, Annie Hall has Woody Allen, and Dr. Strangelove makes light of the cold war. I got my Math test back, B-, not bad.

Grave digger, When ya dig my grave, Could ya make it shallow? So that I can feel the rain, Grave digger-Dave Matthews

MMM, math test. I need something to bring up the C- and I think I got A- range today. I'm so relieved. School was finished after 6th period so I came home, and continued working on my Kawaga logo. It's actually beginning to look really good. While doing that, I checked my email and got an email from paypal. My buyer bought the 5 amps. I was very excited, so the next two hours I spent getting the amp to fed ex. I also cashed my check from tumblers, so today was very good for my wallet!!! I ended my day by going to my brother's band and chorus concert. Phew, I'm exhausted. I'm off to take some codine and pass out.

"If my rhyme was a drug I'd sell it by the gram"-Vanilla Ice

Today was not a very interesting day, as most of my days are. I took my last recommendation form over to Mr. Conway at Highland Park, and then I watched the first act of Stunts. I must say, that you guys are doing an excellent job. Tonight, I relaxed, and then began to work on a camp logo. SEE BELOW.

It's really only the part in the center, but I have to make the thing about 5-6 feet tall. It will take about 12 hours, I think. I started on it for about an hour today. It's slow going, but the end result will be quite gratifying.

• THE KID'S A BEAST
• A PICTURE THROUGH YOUR MONITOR?
• PONG, A METAPHOR FOR LIFE

Today I drove down to Chicago to run a show. It was at the Lawrence House Retirement Center on Lawrence avenue. I got there, and the room was smaller than the thickness of Eric's new laptop!!! Anyways, there was no need for microphones, so we just ran the music. It was a waste of a morning, but I enjoyed the ride. You can't beat driving in the city, I highly recommend it for those who are just aggressive enough to not wuss out, but just cautious enough to look out for your own hunk of tin. I finally got my car washed after crew, I was going to do it last night, and this morning, however things kept getting into my way. I decided to hang out tonight, and computer shop online. I'm so greedy, I want a desktop and a laptop, we'll see what happens. I'd be going dell again. (Patrick lets out a sigh and shakes his head). I know you to well Pat.

ALTERNATIVE STATE MOTTOS
MARTHA
POKE

Today was fun. School was school, but after school was cool. I went and bought a new curtain for the orchestra pit, and it looks really good. I went to citrus, and then went out to eat with E and Pat. It was fun. I decided today that I want to be the stage manager for the musical, or I don't want to be anything at all. I think that I need to try every position at least once, and stage manager is the last one left on my list. If I'm not stage manager, I don't really want to be anything at all. We'll see what happens, I'm not expecting anything so I won't feel shafted if I don't get it. Beyond that, I began to think about my temple for some reason. I'm doing numerous Shining Lights shows this weekend, (I'm not even going to bother linking the Shining Lights page, what's the point?). It got me thinking about my memories at Lakeside. I can't recall one moral or lesson that I have been taught in the last decade. It seems, all we hear about is frickin Israel. Don't take this as a disregard for human life, but what's going on down there makes me laugh. Life is way too short to be meddling over land. Settle down and learn to live with each other. If we can't do that, then what's the point anyways? But that was my Lakeside career, learning pity for the issues in Israel. I also had fond memories of copying papers all of last year, every Sunday morning. They payed me to work on their webpage, and I never worked on it. Check it out now, It's still as crappy as when I left. And then there was my fifth grade teacher, who was only there for a day before he got sent to the big house for child pornography over the internet. What a wonderful world in which we live. But between all of this, I am supposed to grow up and become a good Jew. Yeah, right. There's too much crap in the world to make me believe that there is a god. And if there is, god doth have a sense of humor, because our world, looked at from a far off angle, must be a joke. But enough dissent for one day.

"hey, don't write yourself off yet, it's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on, just try your best, try everything you can, and don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away"-Jimmy Eat World

Today was uneventful. I took a math test, and actually feel semi confident about how I did. beyond that, today was boring. I ran a show at Aptakisic Jr. High School today, which was fun. It wasn't one of my better shows though. I've got two more coming up on Saturday and Sunday, and I will make it up there. speaking of shows, I should really get my theatre page up and running. Maybe I'll do that this weekend.

"They love to tell you "stay inside the lines", But something's better On the other side, I wanna run through the halls of my high school, I wanna scream at the Top of my lungs, I just found out there's no such thing, as the real world, Just a lie you've got to rise above"-John Mayer

12/4/02

I bombed my physics test today. It was the first time that I ever felt like I had bombed a test. Whatever, I don't really care, it's not like one physics test is going to decide my future. May I say, that I hate School Chest? I have no problem donating, and I don't have a problem VOLUNTEERING my time and money. However once the element of force is introduced, all bets are off. Today, in my homeroom, we got gum to sell, 25 cents a stick, but the 500% inflation on a stick of gum that i'm interested in. Our homeroom representative said that if we don't sell all of the gum, we can't give it back, but we have to make up the difference. That's the part that kills me. If I want to volunteer to sell gum, then I will do so. But it's harsh that I am being forced to donate. It kind of takes the enjoyment out of the spirit of school chest. Beyond Deerfield, it has come to my attention that a bunch of the 2001 CIT's are reconsidering going back to camp next year. I had a long conversation with Pumba, and it got me thinking. Fact, J.C.'s are treated like crap. Fact, I haven't done what a lot of the counselors do, and don't have a desire to. Fact, I've been a counselor for a year, and though I'm told that it gets better, and that next year I'll have the new J.C.s to give crap to, doesn't give me a whole lot of consolation. I don't want to give crap to the incoming J.C.s, I like them, and that's crap that people who have been your friends for years change suddenly and a hierarchy comes into play. This is my website, and that's crap, I'm not afraid to say so. And then I am faced with the fact that some of my peers are not coming back. We'll see what happens as we get closer to contracts, however, I could be torn in my decision. I guess I'll see what happens.

"Throw your pride to one side, It's the least you can do. Beatniks and politics, nothing is new. A yardstick for lunatics, one point of view. Who cares what games we choose? Little to win, but nothing to lose".-Strawberry Alarm Clock

12/3/02

Today was great. I woke up late, went to school and had three classes. Two of which were gym, and film as literatures, so basically I had one class, English. NOT A BAD DAY!!!! I finished an essay, and began to master logs, which I might add, I am becoming a master. I went to crew, and the wood racks will be up by tomorrow, so I'll have woodshop wood to look forward to moving, I'm excited! Then I came home and watched a part of the directors cut of Vanilla Sky. I can honestly say that my enjoyment of the film has turned into an obsession. It was like the time we did Jesus Christ Superstar in Tech theatre, and I was just so moved and mesmerized by the music that I had to listen to it over and over again. Vanilla sky is the same way. Feel Better Caitlin!!! OK, so you know how those pop up ads are so annoying, well I found what could be the best pop up ad ever. It said, take out Saddam, win a prize. It had Saddam's head moving back and forth through the ad, and your mouse, when run over it controled a sight from a gun, and then when you pressed down, it goes bang, and Saddam's head explodes bringing you to a Columbia house webpage. I laughed pretty hard. Anyways, goodnight.

"Call out the instigator, Because there's something in the air, We've got to get together sooner or later
Because the revolution's here,And you know it's right" -Thunderclap Newman

Back to school, grrr. Well, today I did a lot of nothing. I rented Strangers on a Train, which is an Alfred Hitchcock movie that I highly reccomend. I thought it was great. Although it doesn't compare to Vanilla Sky, which I forgot to mention I saw yesterday, but you can see I quoted it below. I saw it in the theatres with Elliott about a year ago, and saw it again yesterday. It could be the most amazing movie I have ever seen. It is a story where dreams mix with reality, and how certain decisions that we make effect the lives of us and others. IF YOU"VE NEVER SEEN THE MOVIE, STOP READING NOW!!! I realized that the movie speaks to those who have ever contemplated suicide. David Aames (Tom Cruise) kills himself, and we see the after effect of what it does to a woman (Penelope Cruz) that he has only met once, spent one night with. The movie tells us that it is the small things that impact us most. One night can leave a lasting impression on a person, and once you are gone, they may never be the same. One never knows how much they impact another person. CONTINUE READING NOW!!!! So back to reality, I finished my day by writing an essay comparing Hitchcock movies. I must say that I learned a lot by writing the essay. It was a pleasure for once to do homework. Well, enough babble, I'll cut myself off now.

"Lighten up while you still can don't even try to understand Just find a place to make your stand and take it easy ...Well I'm running down the road trying to loosen my load, got a world of trouble on my mind lookin' for a lover who won't blow my cover, she's so hard to find."-The Eagles

All state again. We did quite a bit of painting today. The underbelly must be completely painted. U of I has very strict codes. Everything has to be flame retardent, so no wood surfaces can be visible. After that, we took the set over to Acorn Storage, on Milwaukee Avenue. That went well, except for a set piece falling off of a pickup truck. Hey, it was windy!!! Everything fit today, so for that I am glad. It was awesome to get to know everyone better this weekend. Especially the Lobello brothers, who are just plain awesome!!! Kyle(Edwardsville Kyle), we seem to work on everything together, and it seems that we always have some way to complement each others skills. I can't give you all enough praise, you all do such wonderful work, and it is great to be on an equal plane. After allstate, I came home and did homework. Thank (the atheist version of god) for late arrivals.

"Every passing minute is another chance to turn it all around"-Vanilla Sky